Friday, May 28, 2010

HAIR DAY! HAIR DAY!

G0d gave me hair f0r a number 0f reas0ns:

1. t0 gr0w it l0ng en0ugh t0 make pe0ple believe that i'm actually a girl.. ha ha!

2. t0 have a reas0n t0 wake up early every m0rning

3. t0 have such thing as "bad hair days" (which happens m0st 0f the time if i d0n't d0 #2)

4. t0 have s0mething t0 talk ab0ut with friends

5. t0 add t0 my expenses *d0ink!*

6. t0 have means 0f expressing ï'm pissed", ï'm depressed", ï'm happy" 0r simply b0red

and m0st imp0rtantly,

7. t0 remind me that there's h0pe in [alm0st] everything; that things can get better.. bc0z n0 matter h0w sh0rt y0u cut it 0r h0w badly a new hairstyle turns 0ut, it will still gr0w

Thursday, May 20, 2010

NUMBERS

:: 2029 mails in my inb0x

:: 16 drafts

:: 2 0f which are addressed t0 y0u

:: 571 friends in faceb0ok

:: 572 if it still included y0u

:: 62 are 0nline

:: 27 are idle

:: 38 days til 0ur bali trip

:: 26 years 0f existence

:: 19/05/2010 4:10:56 last seen 0nline

:: 3 m0vie nights in a r0w

:: 8 t0 14 - students' age range

:: 6 days and c0unting

:: 3969 - chasing cars

:: 1:23 AM

:: f0r 1 m0re day

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

TREE, LEAF, WIND


Tree
_____________

People call me "Tree".

I had dated 5 girls when I was in Pre-U. There is one girl who I love alot but never dared to go after. She didn't have a pretty face, goodfigure or an outstanding charm. She was just a very ordinary girl. I liked her. I really liked her. I liked her innocence, her frankness, her intelligence and her fragility. Reason for not going after her was thatI felt somebody so ordinary like her was not a good match for me. I wasalso afraid that after we were together all the feelings would vanish. I was also afraid other's gossip would hurt her.

I felt that if she were my girl, she'd be mine ultimately & I didn'thave to give up everything just for her. The last reason, made heraccompanying me for 3 years. She watched me chase other girls, and I have made her heart cry for 3 years. She was a good actor, and me ademanding director. When I kissed my second girlfriend, she bumped into us. She was embarrassed but smiled & said, "Go on!" before running off.The next day, her eyes were swollen like a walnut. I did not want toknow what caused her to cry. Later that day, I returned from soccertraining to get something & watched her cry in the classroom for an hour or so. My fourth girlfriend did not like her.There was once when both of them quarreled. I know that based on hercharacter she is not the type that will start the quarrel. However, Istill sided my girlfriend. I shouted at her & ignored her feelings and walked off with my girlfriend. The next day, she was laughing & jokingwith me like nothing happened. I know she was hurt but she did not knowdeep down inside I was hurt too.

When I broke up with my fifth girlfriend, I asked her out. Later thatday, I told her I had something to tell her. I told her about my breakup.Coincidentally, she has something to tell me too, about her gettingtogether. I knew who the person was. His pursuit for her had been the talk of the School. I did not show her my heartache, just smiles & best wishes.Once I reached home, I could not breathe. Tears rolled & I broke down. How many times have I seen her cry for the man who did not acknowledge her presence?

During graduation, I read a SMS in my hp. It said, "Leaf's departure isbecause of Wind's pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay"

Leaf
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People call me Leaf.

During the 3 years of Pre-U, I was on very close terms with a guy asbuddy kind. However, when he had his first girlfriend, I learnt afeeling I never should have learnt - Jealousy. Sourness to the extreme limit. They were only together for 2 months. When they broke up, I hidmy happiness. But after a month, he got together with another girl.

I liked him & I know he liked me. But why won't he pursue me? Since heloves me why he didn't he make the first move? Whenever he had a new girlfriend, my heart would hurt. After some time, I began to suspect that this was one-sided love. If he didn't like me, why did he treat me so well? It's beyond what you will normally do for a friend. I know hislikes, his habits.But his feelings towards me I can never figure out. You can't expect mea girl, to ask him. Despite that, I still wanted to be by his side. Care
for him, accompany him, and love him. Hoping that one day, he will come to love me. Because of this, I waited for him. Sometimes, I wondered ifI should continue waiting. The pain, the dilemma accompanied me for 3 years.

At the end of my 3rd year, a junior pursues me. Everyday he pursues me. He's like the cool & gentle wind, trying to blow off a leaf from a tree. In the end, I realized that I wanted to give this wind a small footing in my heart. I know the wind will bring the leaf to a better land. Finally, leaf leftthe tree, but the tree only smiled & didn't ask me to stay.

Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit. Or cause Tree didn't ask her to stay.

Wind
________________

Because I like a girl called leaf. Because she's so dependent on tree, so I have to be a gust wind. A wind that will blow her away. When I first met her, it was 1 month after I was transferred to this new school. I saw a petite person look ing at my seniors & me playingsoccer. During ECA time, she will always be sitting there. Be it alone or with her friends, looking at him. When he talks with girls, there's jealousy in her eyes. When he looked at her, there's a smile in her eyes. Looking at her became my habit. Just like, she likes to look at him.

One day, she didn't appear. I felt something missing. I can't explain the feeling except it's a kind of uneasiness. The senior was also not there as well. I went to their classroom, hid outside and saw my senior scolding her. Tears were in her eyes while he left. The next day, I saw her at her usual place, looking at him. I walked over and smiled to her. Took out a note & gave to her. She was surprised. She looked at me, smiled & accepts the note. The next day, she appeared & passes me a note and left.

It read, "Leaf's heart is too heavy and wind couldn't blow her away."

"It's not that leaf heart is too heavy. It because leaf never want to leave tree." I replied her note with this statement and slowly she started to talk to me & accept my presents & phone calls. I know that the person she loves is not me. But I have this perseverance that one day I will make her like me. Within 4 months, I have declared my love for her no less than 20 times. Every time, she will divert away from the topic. But I never give up. If I decide I want her to be mine, I will definitely use all means to win her over. I can't remember how many times I have declared my love to
her. Although I know, she will try to divert but I still bear a small ray of hope.

Hoping that she will agree to be my girlfriend. I didn't hear any reply from her over the phone. I asked, "What are you doing? How come you didn't want to reply?" She said, "I'm nodding my head". "Ah?" I couldn't believe my ears. "I'm nodding my head" She replied loudly. I hang up the phone, quickly changed and took a taxi and rush to her place & press her doorbell. During the moment when she opens the door, I hugged her tightly.

Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay...

-Author Unkn0wn

Monday, May 10, 2010

N THINGS I HATE ABOUT YOU

i hate the way y0u talk t0 me
and the way y0u've styled y0ur hair

i hate the way y0u drive y0ur car
i hate it when y0u pretend t0 care

i hate the way y0u read my mind
and h0w i can never read y0urs

i hate the way y0u're always right,
i hate it when y0u lie

i hate y0u s0 much it makes me sick,
it even makes me rhyme

i hate the way y0u always tell me what t0 d0
h0w many times d0 i have t0 say that i am n0t like y0u

i hate it when y0u always tell me y0u've g0t n0thing t0 say everytime i p0ur my heart 0ut and h0w y0u never even b0thered t0 clear 0ut my d0ubts

i hate h0w y0u can get things d0ne as l0ng as y0u set y0ur mind t0 it
and the way y0u plan everything but never made me part 0f any 0f it..

...except h0w l0ng y0u were g0ing t0 keep me and h0w y0u'd simply let things be

i hate h0w my time st0pped every time i was with y0u
while y0urs always went "tick t0ck tick t0ck, time's up! i have t0 g0, c u!"

i hate the way "as always", "we'll see", and "..." was part 0f the s0-called US
and h0w despite all these i still miss h0w everything was

i hate the way y0u make me laugh
even worse when y0u make me cry

i hate it when y0u're n0t ar0und
and the fact that y0u didn't call

but m0stly, i hate the way i d0n't hate y0u,
n0t even cl0se, n0t even a little bit, n0t even at all

[based fr0m the m0vie 10 things i hate ab0ut y0u]